She's My Sleeping Pill

Chapter 85 - GOING ON A DATE III

"Let me get a ticket for the Ferris Wheel ride." Stefan told her and let her take a seat on one of the benches around the place. They've been walking for quite some time and he thought that she's tired.

Cayenne didn't question him. He can do whatever he thinks is right. In any case, this is just a fake date. Even though she tried her best not to invest her feelings, she couldn't stop her heart from feeling warm with all his sweet and thoughtful actions. 'If only this is real.' Cayenne sighed to herself when she watched him go to the ticketing booth.

Stefan looked back to see her and that's when he caught her watching him. She smiled at him and he smiled back. He even waved his hand. 'Is she really doing all the things she did for me because of her job? Doesn't she have any single affection for me?'

'You don't have any slight affection for her, too. What's the difference?' Stefan's other side of the brain retorted.

'But I genuinely cared for her before.'

'If you genuinely cared for her, you wouldn't think of something that could possibly hurt her. That's not how you care for someone.'

Stefan was basically arguing with himself internally and he couldn't seem to make up his mind.

"Excuse me, sir. Is there anything that I can help you with?" It was the ticketing lady that brought Stefan to reality.

He looked around him and found Cayenne not far from where he was. "I want two tickets for the Ferris Wheel and the rollercoaster."

"Just a moment sir." The lady turned around to get two tickets for each ride that Stefan mentioned. "Here you go, sir."

Stefan handed his card to pay for it. He looked around the place for any other things that the two of them could do. The lady returned his card and Stefan went back to Cayenne with the tickets that he bought.

Seeing the extra two tickets for a different ride, Cayenne looked at him with what-is-that-ticket-for gaze. "This is for the rollercoaster." Stefan spoke without waiting for her to speak. Cayenne nodded her head without saying anything. "Let's go."

"Okay." Stefan held her hand once again. He really liked the feeling of holding her hand with his. They lined up for the Ferris wheel first. Cayenne had been looking forward to this ride.

"Ayen?" Stefan called her without looking at her.

"Yes?"

"Christmas is coming near, I am still going to your house, right?"

"Hn. I told them already that you'd be coming with me. If you want to cancel it, it is also fine with me."

Stefan thought about it. He's deceiving her and coming to the apartment would mean deceiving her family. 'We've deceived them already and going there won't change a thing.'

"I'm still going." Stefan mumbled after few minutes. "I want to celebrate Christmas with your family."

"Okay." Cayenne perfunctorily responded. Whether he comes or doesn't really matter to her. It's his life after all. He can choose however he wants to celebrate the occasion. After almost ten minutes of waiting, it was finally their turn to get into the cable car of the Ferris Wheel. "Is this your first time riding a Ferris Wheel?"

"Why do you ask?" Stefan questioned, trying to keep a straight face in front of her.

"Because you don't look like you're enjoying this ride."

Stefan's mouth quivered as they continued to go up. The people below them was getting smaller and he could feel the trembling of his knees even though he was sitting opposite her.

"I'm afraid of high places with transparent floorings."

"Oh." Cayenne moved to his side and held his hand. "Don't look down. Why don't you look at the sky instead?"

Stefan raised his head following her instruction. This was just part of his acting. He wanted her to feel that she's important to him because he still rode the Ferris Wheel with her despite his 'fear'. Stefan will do her best to make her fall in love with him. 'But will she fall in love with me if she sees I'm weak?'

Because of this thought, Stefan changed immediately. "Ayen, it's good to have you beside me. I'm no longer afraid."

"I'm glad to know that you are feeling okay now." While saying these words, she was actually smiling internally. She didn't expect to see the cute side of Stefan during this fake date. "Would you still want to ride the rollercoaster?"

"Hn. As long as you won't let go of me."

"I promise I won't let go of your hand. Don't worry."

The ride continued and the moment they finished it, and got out of the cable car, Cayenne looked for a store to buy a bottle of mineral water for him.

In this moment, it's Stefan's turn to watch her walk away from him. The scene from his dream with Cayenne dying in front of him suddenly appeared and he felt scared. He reached out his hand to her but Cayenne continued to walk away.

"Ayen." He called her name but Cayenne didn't turn back to look at him. He's feeling weird with the thought of losing her. He didn't want to lose her. "Ayen! Come back!"

Cayenne heard him calling which made her spin around only to see his worried and frightened expression. She walked back to him with equal worry on her face. "What happened? Are you okay?"

Stefan grabbed her hand and intertwined their fingers, locking her with his. "You told me that you won't let go of me. Why did you walk away by yourself?"

His voice was loud enough to make the other people look at him.

"Hey! Isn't that Stefan Dumrique?" one of the women in the crowd asked.